School and I

What helped to motivate me to work in school was that my counselor helped me think more about my future. Now that I am more motivated to do my work I want to get done as much as I can. I took me a while to start doing work but now I think about all the time I waste for playing around. Now that I am here I want to show my best. Sometimes is hard but I know that at the end I am receiving good things out of it. Sometimes I fell like I don’t want to continue, but I think about other things like getting the best out of me and showing my niece the best out of me. My niece is one of the most important things in my life and I want to help her in each of her steps. My mom had shown me to fight for what I want and that’s what I am doing; fighting for what I want, and taking her advice. I really want to graduate from high school and I am going to fight for all it takes. Now school is very important in my life. I am very proud of my self and I want to keep it up.

My Niece and My Sister

The most important thing in my life is my niece. My niece is my whole world when she was born I never thought I was going to love her so much sometimes I look at her and my eyes get watery just thinking about her, I don’t even want to think about it. When she was born I was in my room talking on the phone like I usually do. I received a call from my aunt and the first thing they told me was “You’re an aunt but your sister is really complicated and the doctor said “She almost knocked Jesus’s door”.

I didn’t know what to do. I didn’t know if I should cry or laugh. My heart was bumping so fast. I couldn’t hold it. I stared crying tears where coming down my face like water goes down a water fall. I was in shock calling every five minutes. Two days later I couldn’t hold it. I bought a ticket and I flew there. Coming from the airport guess what was the first stop? The hospital. Only one person could come in, my mom did. After a while it was visitation hour I came in. My sister was better. I came in her room when I saw her face more tears were coming down my face I had a mix of emotions. I couldn’t wait to see my niece. When I got to see her I stared crying in a good way it was because I was so happy my niece looked like a little angel folded in a blanket. Now that my niece came to my life and I see her growing up each day my life has changed a lot. I love my niece.
Yadielis and Yarline Te Amo!

An Aunt Again

I’m going to be an aunt for a third time, and I’m once again excited to death. I have two brothers and they each have a child. This is about to change for Andres. He is married and has a wonderful family. His daughter which was my first niece is named Isabella and I would do anything to protect her. She’s already two years old and is expecting a little sister around April whose name is going to be Samantha.

I couldn’t be happier when I heard the news. I was just as happy as the Yankees were when they won the World Championship. My parents and I have been buying her clothes and clothes for little girls couldn’t get more precious. I also have a nephew named Alejandro. He is eighteen months old and he is really big. He’s also very smart just like Isabella. They are quick to learn new things and capture everything they see.

Alejandro loves to play with Isabella, since they’re growing up together. Isabella is older therefore she knows more, like her numbers to five, her colors, and most of the family’s names. They are my world and I love them very much. I can’t wait until my sister-in-law gives birth to her second daughter and have her here with me.

I love kids, but I’m too young to have my own. I’m waiting to have my life set with a career and accomplish my goals. For now I’m as excited as if they were my own. I love them and always will. They’re in Colombia and even though I can’t always have them, I feel it in my heart that they are there. I will always be here, and I can’t wait until Isabella grows up. Being her only aunt means I’m going to try my hardest to be her best friend. These three kids are my life, and will continue to be.

Miguel vs. Ryan

“Oh lord!” I thought to myself in my head. “Why does this have to happen to me?”

I’m facing the worst decision of my life and I don’t know what to do. I remember when it was just me and Miguel and when he seemed like the perfect guy in the world and I was the luckiest girl. But as the year went on there was a bump in the road with me and him and we separated for a good amount of time. I felt horrible, like a piece of me was missing. I didn’t feel so lucky anymore. I was just a normal girl.

But then I met him. He was in my first hour (I also had Miguel in my first hour). His name was Ryan. He was so cute and I was always just wondering if he even noticed me, but a week went by and I still never said a word to him but for some reason I had an urge to check my MySpace and I had a message. It was from Ryan! My friend Kesha was with me and she knew how much I liked him and we were both shrieking with joy.

I opened it and he said that he’d been seeing me and that I look like a girl he would be into and so that’s how the conversation started and we talked for a month or two until he asked me out. So of course I said yes. We talked on the phone everyday and always had something to talk about. There was never a dull moment. Until one day, we had a big argument and I stopped answering his calls.

Well, now I’m back with Miguel and things are on a kind of good, kind of bad trail. To make things worse, Ryan’s been calling me and expressing his true feelings for me. Having to deal with all of this makes me feel like I’m doing something wrong but it feels so right. I’m not sure if that’s what I want to deal with but I guess I just have a big decision on my hands.

Like Sisters

I have a sister but to keep it honest she’s my bestiee her name is Thena. We’ve known each other for about six years (about to be seven in a few weeks :] ). We have been thorough everything together. She is awesome. She’s the only one I really truly trust. She is like my personal guidance counselor. Whenever I feel like I’m alone I feel my phone vibrate and see her name on the screen and I’m reminded that I do and will always have someone who’s going to be there for me.

When we are together we are invincible, like the world can come at us with all its might but we can still stand strong as long as were together. I’m not saying without me she’s weak, but I have to admit it we work best together.

Every girl has to have a support system when they are young especially with all these boys here. She is mine. Like the time where I didn’t know what to do because my boyfriend was not being to nice to me. All I had to do was pick up my cell phone and dial her number and as soon as the ringing started I knew I was going to get through the day just because I’m going to talk to her and make it all better.

I promise I wouldn’t know what to do if I hadn’t met her in the fourth grade. She is my better half. The ying to my yang. Most of all she’s my best friend, well I think she’s even more than that. She is my sister. I love my crazy sister, Thena.

Best Friends

Well, I met this girl who truly makes me feel like I’m someone. We go to school together. She’s someone I could call a sister.

When I found out that she was moving I was sad, really sad and I didn’t know what to do! Her family was getting ready to move, packing there stuff, and signing papers..

We spent our last days together, having sleepovers, getting our nails done, going to the movies, and talking about things we didn’t feel like saying to other people. Every night I would think about this situation and these phrases would keep coming into my head like “WHO WOULD I SPEND TIME WITH WHEN IM BORED”, “WHO WOULD BE THERE FOR ME WHEN NO ONE ELSE IS THERE”…

Well on the day that was supposed to be her last day IT WASN’T because her sister’s case worker said she had a bad criminal record so they couldn’t move. LET ME TELL YOU I WAS SO D*** HAPPY” that I screamed to the top of my lungs and hugged my friend really tight.

After that I was the happiest person in the world!

Peer Pressure

Okay I go to a school called -------. I just started like last month some time.
I’m friends with every body. But there are a couple of people here that don’t like me. When I first started I got paper thrown at me, called names, talked about in my face.

All this for what?

I don’t know.

I went home and explained it to my mom. I hated coming to school everyday because of this but I had to deal with it. I’m here not to make friends but to do my work. I try talking to my counselors about it but it seems it didn’t work. I’ll be glad when I leave this place.

I know everything is going to work out soon. Everybody is not going to stay here forever. I just don’t know how much I can take.

Everything is going bad. I’m only 16. I can’t take it any more! When I’m mad, sad, down and out the only thing I trust and can turn to was my diary. No one seemed to have time for me. That’s why I can’t wait until I get old enough so I can move away from everyone. It always seemed as if all the bad things happen to me. Why? Why? Why?

I thought bullying wasn’t allowed in this school.

Prosecutor

When I grow up I want to be a prosecutor. I want to be a well known lawyer all over the United States of America. I want to be a lawyer because its something I’ve always wanted to be growing up. Growing up I would act like I was in a courtroom and I would present my case in front of a jury and I never lost any of my cases. I love watching shows that have anything to do with the law and victims because that motivates me to shoot for my dreams. I watch Law & Order, Law & Order Criminal Intent ,Law & Order SVU, and The Closer, Without A Trace and plenty more. I will do what ever I have to do to make my dream come true.

Difficult Decisions in Love

A time I had to make a difficult decision was when my ex-boyfriend’s best friend wanted to go out with me. I liked him but I was scared because that was his best friend and I didn’t want Fredo to get mad.

Guess what? Yeah and my dumb self still went out with him. His name was Ace. The only reason I went out with him even though I know it was wrong was because he always treated me right. He did some things that Fredo never did and that is showing me respect.
Also he would try to chill with me everyday and I liked that. I thought it was sweet.

So one way we were walking to ‘’the cut ‘’ which is a little place in the woods behind a liquor store by a neighborhood where people just hang out at and vibe. Anyways, we got there and suddenly Fredo had to be there. He was sitting down on the couch with his other girl and his friend Lancey .As soon as I walked in Fredo’s eyes came straight to me then he looked down and texted me ‘’don’t fxxking talk to me.’’ I replied “Why?’’

He didn’t write back but he looked like he wanted to hit the shxt out of me. Later on that day he was rolling ,and he had lost the leaf. I helped him look for it. Well hey, he was right next to me. I had to help him even though he was mad. So I lifted up his shirt to see if he misplaced it there and his girl was quick to say something.

Her name was Yaya. She said “You don’t have to touch his shirt.”

I was like, “Oh wow. Who are you to tell me that?” Ace was mad so he left and Yaya joined him out the cut .The only people left was Lancey, Fredo and me .We got bored so we left to Fredo’s house .When we arrived to his crib I had to leave. My cousin was going to pick me up .So last but not least, I said bye and walked off.

Out of nowhere Fredo followed me and said “Babe, wait.’’ I stopped and turned around and said “What happened?’’ and he said ‘’Can I have a kiss?’’in the sweetest voice ever.

And with out me answering his question he gave me a kiss anyways .I just stood there and kissed him back .

The next day I broke up with Ace and Fredo broke up with THAT GIRL and we worked things out .Now we go out and chill everyday. Fredo was better then ever. Ace was little bit mad when he saw us but everything was straight and back to normal .

A note to the bae in jail :

A note to the bae in jail :

I miss your crazy ass. I haven’t seen you in a minute. You always got to get into some kind of trouble. But that’s what makes you and I love it .But you really need to tighten up.

I want to let you know that I haven’t forgot about you .And Babe, remember that last day we chilled you came with Jit to Rambo Park to come see me and that boy came up to me and asked me if I went out with you? Well I’m sorry I said NO when I was going out with you at that time. I regret it. I should of said YES because you are my baby. No other boy can take your place.

Anyway how have you been? I’ve been going to school everyday. I haven’t skipped like I used to with you.

Be good in there. Don’t listen to haters in there. Ignore them .
Do that for me and I will wait for you until you come out with my arms open ready to hug you as hard as I can .You remain in my mind always and forever .

I have to go now .

I love you.

SOMETHING I WILL NEVER FORGET (

When I was about 9 years old something happened to me that I would never forget. Well one night when my mother was working all night, my uncle was home watching me and my sisters. He was suddenly mad at his girlfriend. I guess they were arguing on the phone. So he took all his anger on me. I was sleeping and he woke me up and, asked me a “QUESTION.”

The question he asked was an ordinary question, a question that never would have came to my head! Well the question that he asked was, “CAN I TOUCH YOU?” I didn’t know he meant it in a negative way. But I guess I was wrong. After that happened, I wasn’t the same person anymore.

I didn’t talk to anyone for a while. I was just being to myself. Three days later I finally talked to my mom and told her what my uncle did to me. I went through lots of things like talking to the police and just answering a lot of questions.

After that situation was handled I still wasn’t back to normal. I was a depressed person. But every since I came to my new school, I’ve gotten a little talkative. I’m going to put what happened back and start a new life not worrying about anything!

Relationship Issues

I’m gay. I’m in a relationship with this girl. I really love her. She tells me she loves me too, but then she doesn’t act like it to me. She puts her homeboys before me, and when she is around her friends she ignores my calls or when she does answers me she gets very slick and tries to show off. I hate that. If you’re going to act like that don’t mess with me. I really love her and for her to act out on me like this, it isn’t worth it.

She gets money (you don’t want to know from where), she stays with the cash , and she pays my mom’s phone bill just to talk to me. But when I need my hair done or my hygienic things she is so stingy. If I have it, she got it. I’ll give her my heart and die with out.

That’s how much I love her.

We met at my old neighbor hood out side. We met eyes and I just knew I had to have her. I asked her cousin for her number, and she gave it to me. We used to text, and talk on the phone. She use to try and act “hard to get.” That’s what I hated about her. But I did try so hard. I gave it my all.

Now I’m her main lady. Me and her until death do us part. At least that’s what I thought.

Now we don’t go out. We are just close friends. She talks to this other girl.

Do I care? Yes\no. I’m the main bae. Duhhhh!!!!! She is not going anywhere and I’m not either.

And what I don’t like is when I make her mad she calls me stupid b****,dumb h**,
I get called every name but the child of god. When I get mad at her I don’t talk to her.
Then she tries to suck up to me and be nasty but she knows how to make me give in.

Women's Equality

Today we celebrate women’s equality day. Do you like being a women? What are the worst parts?

The best part of being women is that we can do things that boys can’t do. And the worse part is worrying about your weight and how you look.
Women can do some things that men can’t do. For example, women have the ability to have babies and to do splits and boys can’t do that stuff because their body won’t let them. So that’s definitely a plus for women.

One of the worst parts of being a women is the obsession we have with wanting to look skinny. Now a days every girl you see maybe or maybe not has something that they can change about their body and if they see a little imperfection they have to fix it and that’s kind of bad. I think that is unhealthy because they all might do something that hurts their body like crash dieting. You are basically starving yourself. I don’t agree with that at all. I also wouldn’t like someone who gets plastic surgery because that is very dangerous and can lead into a lot of other bad things.

The People Who mean Everything To Me

The most important people in my life would be my family; which includes my mother, my father, two brothers and my niece and nephew. My closest friends are Z----, Yoselin, Dulce, and Yanibel. Another one would be my four-year boyfriend Robert. These people mean everything to me, and I would do anything for them at any needed time.

My mother specifically would be my number one! My right hand in other words. She’s always been here, and I know no matter where I go in life, I’ll have my mother in my life. I’m grateful to have her here and I’m so delighted in being her daughter; it feels like I’ve got everything in the world. Of course we have our bad times but she’s the woman that gave me life and I couldn’t thank her enough for that. Not many teens get a mother like this, so I feel extra lucky. I can talk to her about absolutely anything, and everything. When I need her, she’s always there. My father also means a lot. Even though he isn’t my birth father, he’s as special to me as any birth father would be. He’s raised me since an early age, and just like my mom he’s being there and tried hard to understand me. I’m so thankful for the parents god chose for me.

My closest friends would be Z----, Yoselin, Dulce, Yanibel. I’ve k known them all in different years but I know I can count on them. Each of them is very special and hold a part of my heart. Thanks to them I know what true friendship feels like, and after so many disappointments I’ve incurred. Z---- and me are basically Bonnie & Clyde. Most of the time we’re together and we couldn’t be closer- we both trust each other, and we can talk to each other about anything. Yoselin, is my partner in crime/besti she’s been here for me through my problems and she’s still here just like I’ll always be here as well. Dulce, is the humorous one and she always gets my weird side, which I love. On the other hand, Yanibel has been here for the longest and even though distance separates us we couldn’t be closer at hearts.

My boyfriend means a lot to me. We’ve been dating for four years and even though they’ve been on and off, I wouldn’t ask for someone else. He tries to understand me when I’m going through my weird moments, and does a great job at being there for me. He’s not like other guys out there. He’s unique. He doesn’t know how much potential he has, but one of the reasons I’m here is to show him. He’s taught me a lot in four years and I believe our love for each other is that unconditional love. I’m glad to have these people in my life because thanks to them I’m the person I am today.

Future Poem "I Feel Like R. Kelly"

I’m 23 years old, living in the city that never sleeps!
I’m hearing my secretary call my phone reminding me, my appointment with Mr. Lopez is at three pm.
Just to think about all the crazy stories he confesses every Wednesday afternoon makes me want to scream my lungs out.
I’m in a perfect stage of my life; a renowned psychologist.
I feel like R.Kelly- The worlds greatest!
I hear strange noises – BING! BANG! BOOM!
I feel my chair transporting me back to November 19, 2009.
I have a vivid picture of me waiting extremely patient for my birthday to come.
I was about to turn the big eighteen, and I was finally starting to feel grown.
I’m back to my office and Mr. Lopez is knocking on my glass door.
Remembering the days when I went through them as I wished seems childish, I never had obligations and all I worried about was having a new cell phone and my fresh car.